Some people always tell the same story, others like to use the same analogy for everything- for me it's books.
Garret started Kindergarten today (I'll tell you the details in a minute). I have known this was coming (luckily he is one of the oldest in his class so I got a little extra time to think about it). Even knowing it was coming I wasn't ready for it. I was told I would be ready to send him off. I wasn't. I love having him around. He is a great helper and his siblings adore him- plus he is my baby and even when he is not on his best behavior I love being there to help him through it. So, it's safe to say I was not counting down for the big day. I wasn't really dreading it, I know he is a good well behaved kid so I didn't worry about him getting into trouble, I know academically he is either ahead or up to par with the other kids so I wasn't worried about that.
Here is where the book analogy comes in- I just hated that for him to start this chapter it meant the last chapter was ending. I love watching him grow and experience new things. I am his fan through and through, right there cheering him on as he grows and tries new things- but with each new chapter, I feel a deep down pain knowing that never again will we enjoy the one before.
Having Garret at home day in and day out for nearly 6 years has been a wonderful chapter of my life and his as well. This is where my book example doesn't work because in a book you can read your favorite chapters over and over but in life I can never experience Garret at 1 again, or relive his first steps, I can never again enjoy his baby voice or marvel as he learns to counts. There will be new and exciting wonderful moments but the bittersweet feeling comes from knowing that this last chapter has ended.
I am very grateful that I have had the last six years to spent at home with him, I am grateful that I have enjoyed them. I don't feel regrets about his first few years. I look back at them knowing I soaked them in all I could. I just loved those years so much and I love Garret and that is why a part of my heart went to Griffin today and why I felt like I was missing something all day.
Now about this new chapter of his life- I am thrilled for him. I loved school and know he will too. I have been so pleased with his school so far and I am sure he will have priceless memories there. I know this chapter is going to be a great one!
Enough of all that- here is how the day went for Garret-
A few weeks ago he didn't want to go but we went to a lot of school functions before school started and pretty soon he was eagerly awaiting his first day. This morning he woke up excited and picked out his Star Wars shirt to wear. We snapped a pic of him and his backpack- he is such a good looking little guy!
He loved everything about school and I am so glad. Hooray! Day one was a success! I loved the last chapter of his life and I know we will love this one too. Great job today Garret!
And Luckily for me Garret is so in tune with people's emotions. All evening he was not really clingy but he would come over and hug me and then come over and snuggle up on my lap. He is a sweetheart!
It's official I have a school age child. How did that happen?!!!