Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Moving Anxiety

Here I sit....less then a week until we move.  I am a jumble of emotions happy/sad/excited/nervous/frustrated/relieved.....I am full of questions "will anyone like me?", "will my kids find good friends?","did we pick the right rental (a rental again- how did this happen)?", "Are we ready for what lies ahead?".....

I have moved around enough to know that I can be happy anywhere, and yet I still feel this anxious feeling.  Some moves have been so easy, we settle right in, make friends, gather our bearings and life just kind of flows.  Other moves it seems despite our efforts we can't find a niche.  Which will this be?

My kids go to school now, there are not a lot of choices in schools where we are headed.  I wont have the choice of just hauling them to a different school.  Will it be a place they can thrive?  Make friends? Learn what they need to learn?

We feel very good about the next career choice we are making.  It's a big and scary decision but it just feels right.  Even with the confirmation we have felt about the decision I still worry about the unknowns.  Are we ready for the stress that is coming, can we keep up with everything?

I love where I am now.  I get to visit my parents whenever I want.  My brother and his wife are close and are our good friends.  I have friends enough to fill my house.  Friends and family to call when I need something.  Will I find friends that are like family there?  Who will I call when I am in a pinch?

I love our house.  We have room for everyone and lots of land to play on.  Will I get that again someday? Before they are grown and don't care about tree houses anymore?

Tyler will tell you I worry to much- He is right!  Because most of the things I worry about there is nothing I can do about so why do I waste my energy worrying- I don't know!

I worry a lot...I also spend a lot of time thinking about the things I looking forward to and hoping for.  It's killing me that I can't announce where we are going just yet.  Soon!!!  Then I will tell you all the things I already know I will love and what I hope for the future!

Back to packing- I sure have done this a lot lately!!!

Monday, May 21, 2012


What in the world is a yurt?  And why did we go "yurting"?
  Have you ever tried setting a pack n play up in a tent?  It's not that fun.  So rather then sleeping in tents we went camping in yurts.  They are round cabin like dwellings.   A lot of state parks have them. You can rent them and then go camping without the tent!

We headed to Grayland state park Friday.  We were meeting some of my family there. Since our schedule is the most open, we were there several hours before everyone else.  We spent the time on the beach.  We wouldn't have minded if the temperature had been a few degrees warmer.  I thought the kids might complain some of being cold. They never really did.  They just played and played. 

 They even braved the water. Adele was hilarious.  She would run in and get knocked on her face by the waves, get up and run back in.  She was keeping up with the boys!

 The biggest hit was the sand.  They had it EVERYWHERE and would have stayed til dark if they could have.  Even Titus loved the sand.  He had a real knack for finding little things and eating them.  I looked over once and he had found an old crab leg and was chewing on it.  I promptly took that from him.  He had so much drool and snot on his face that whenever he rolled in the sand he would come up with sand plastered all over his face.  But he was one happy camper!

 We tore the kids away after a few hours of beach fun, cleaned up a little and went back to camp. We roasted hot dogs and ate tons of junk.  We also made friends with the squirrels.  They were named Chipper because they wouldn't leave us alone until we gave them a chip to eat! 
 About this time the rest of the gang arrived.  We were all happy to be together but sad that Uncle Dan had to work...but then who came from the bushes...Uncle Dan.  We were all thrilled. The boys especially they had been so disappointed when they found out he might not make it. They prayed every night for a miracle. 

Once we were all together we stayed up late around the fire.
 Ran back to the beach for the sunset and had fun trying to take silhouette pics.  I wish Titus had still been awake for these.

 Heather and Ridge are in one (I don't have a copy of it) that turned out so perfect.  It was fun being creative with the camera.  Spencer and Adele were a little chilly waiting on the windy beach for us.

 The night was better in the yurt then it would have been in a tent- but it was still pretty restless.  Adele was in the bed with Tyler and I.  She is a mover!  At one point she fell of the side. I knew she fell but she didn't wake up so I decided to just let her stay asleep on the floor.  That stretch was the best sleep I got all night (and it wasn't a long stretch).  Then I woke up to her saying "I'm stuck" she had wiggled under the bed.  I yanked her out and endured the wiggle worm the rest of the night.  She crawls in bed some mornings with us at home but it's no big deal because our bed has enough room. She is no fun to share a full bed with.

Needless to say we were all up early.  Everyone was dressed, fed and back on the beach by seven am.  And that is where everyone stayed until lunch time. 

 And playing Kan Jam!  Heather and I are a team.  We usually hold our own alright. Not this time we got thrashed.  We blame the wind....but really we were just off!

 Then it was time to eat and clean up. 
 We said farewell to the yurt and headed for home.  The kids crashed on the way back.  When we got home they were all sad because they wanted to stay at the yurt forever.  The next morning Garret said "I cried a lot last night, I tried not to but I just wish we could have stayed at the yurt". 

Camping is a bit of work.  There is all the packing up to go, the dirt, the food, the camp fire, the pack up to come home, the laundry to do when we get home and the dirt to clean up.  But I think the extra effort is worth it.  It was worth it for all of us.  Being together in nature.  Away from the world.  I think the change in scenery and routine and all the work that goes into it makes it feel special to the kids...and I think when they see us put the effort in to make life fun and exciting for them they understand that they are special to us and our family is special.  It was a great weekend!

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Hello Sunshine!

The sun has been unusually friendly as of late!  We have been outside enjoying her company!

We learned that Titus LOVES Popsicles.  He would go crazy every time Tyler would take it out of his mouth. 

 The other kids enjoy them as well!  Even Spencer who is quite picky about which treats he likes (wish I had that problem).
 We spent a sunny afternoon visiting the Olympic Bakery.  It's a different building but the same good ole' place I worked back in my pre-marriage days.  I believe I worked the summer out of high school and the summer after my first year of college there. The owner, the night baker and I always had a good time.  I'm pretty sure I put on 15 pounds while working there!  They also made our wedding cake as a wedding gift.  I have a lot of great memories from my time there.  But one tops them all-

I got a surprise visitor one hot summer day.  At first I couldn't tell who it was because they had a HUGE bouquet of flowers (fresh from pike's place market) covering their face and half their body (I might be exaggerating a bit, but they were big).  Since I had so many suitors at the time (that was a joke), I didn't know who it could be.  The flowers moved to the side and as our eyes met, I immediately recognized the love of my life (drum roll please)....Tyler.  I cheesed that up a bit but having him come from so far away and surprise me was really fun!  Taking the kids there and telling them the story made for a good afternoon.  Unfortunately, Neil wasn't there or they might have heard a lot of other fun stories!

The sun has been persistent this week so we decided to spend the afternoon today at Fort Flagler.  It is SO beautiful up there.  Since it was mid week we had the sand pretty much to ourselves and I think the kids would have stayed all night if we had let them.  Garret has school tomorrow so we pulled them away (honestly if it weren't for that darn school our schedule would be wide open and we could play all day!).

 Warning- use the Fort Flagler picnic tables with caution.  We decided to do a quick bum change on one (tacky I know but the grass was so prickly).  We are parents of four and extremely efficient diaper changers so normally this would be no big deal.  Let's just say it was not "contained" as well as it should have been.  We did use all the wipes we had to clean up the best we could- but some good rain wouldn't hurt either (it's not like there wasn't already bird poop on it)!

 We attempted some cute shots.  I don't know if we got any where everyone was looking at the camera and smiling.  But that's the way our life is so I guess we did alright.

 The boys loved building with the drift wood (no they did not build the "fort" that they are playing around in a couple of the pics- they just "worked" on it, someone with an architectural degree must have visited the park before us). Titus loved the sand.  Adele loved burying sticks.

We all loved the sun.  I think we could become beach regulars.  The kids just LOVE it....Tyler and I do too!

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Chicks, Early Morning Wake-up call and our House

Our friends got 10 baby chicks.  They let us swing by and see them.  We had planned to build a chicken coop this year and get chickens (prior to the job fall-out). So we thought it was fun enjoying these chicks.  The kids loved them and said "they hope we get property someday soon so we can have chickens!"

The other day I woke up very early and shot up in bed and shook Tyler and told him we needed to hurry and get up because we had to "get the paper signed by 7:00".  He obediently roused himself and was ready to do whatever it what that needed to be done.  He kept saying "ok, ok, what paper".  I said "the one for ___.  It must be for him".  Then I started waking up and said "or maybe I'm dreaming, I could be dreaming".  Turns out after reading through our to-do lists I was dreaming. No urgent papers that needed to be signed by 7 am.  But it got us up and going...something that can be hard to do when you have no job requiring you to get up and go!

My Mom and I went to lunch the other day.  (don't look at me in this picture- but I think she looks good).  Love my Mom!!! 

When we bought this house it was going to be our "forever" house and I was going to put up before and after pictures of each project.  We didn't really get to many projects so there aren't very many after pictures but here are a few of the property just for fun.
 The house is on 5.25 acres.  If you look at the right angle through some trees you can catch a glimpse of the neighbors house- it's really secluded which love.  I don't ever tell my kids to be quite! 

There is a big circle driveway with a pond in middle.  The circle driveway is the BEST thing ever the kids bike around it for hours (no joke).  The pond was a big worry when we first moved in.  We thought the kids might fall in.  I was really strict about them not going by it unless we were out there with them.  They are really good about it and it no longer worries me.  They do love throwing rocks, putting their feet in it and trying to catch fish when we are out with them.
 There is a big barn with fenced pasture around it. It has three horse stalls and a big room.  I think it's beautiful and picture perfect.  Since we lived here during the rainy season and now know we are leaving we never really did much with it.  I hope our friends enjoy it!
 There is a playground and a tire swing.  The tire swing is on the most perfectly shaped tree I have ever seen. It's kind of whimsical and perfect!  You could take a picture of it and have it put on a puzzle and make a million bucks (there's an idea).

 Next to the garage is a little guest house/cabin.  It's not updated like the house but it's just a "blank canvas" waiting for someone to come and put their touch on it.  Just another project we never got it!  I love the idea of having a guest house or cabin on our property again someday.  Family could stay for a little while, or kids when they are older and in between things.
 The house itself is bigger then it looks.  It's not fancy but its nice and met our needs.  It was great the way it was and yet had so much potential to be even nicer. Just picture a railing along the front with big hanging baskets hanging down!!! 
There is a deck behind the house and next to it a trail down to the water. The water is just the tip of an inlet.  Some of the day it is dry, other times it has shallow water.  It's the perfect place for adventures.

The inside is nice. (I don't know if I'll ever get inside pics taken.  Now that it is halfway boxed up I feel like pics would not really show it how it was). The walls are mostly white (they had been all freshly painted prior to our buying it). The rooms are big.  There is lots of storage and there was even a room I was going to make a library.  So many things that never happened. I am one of those people that when I start a project I like to finish it.  It feels strange to sale the house before we finished all the things we wanted to on it. 

So there you have it- our 7th home!  We will be moving in a couple weeks to stop number 8!  I can't tell you anything about what that home will look like.  We haven't found it yet.  We will be going back to renting for a little while again.  I admit that feels like a step backwards.  I definitely prefer owning.  I like being able to work on a home and make it my own.  I like fixing things that break myself ( I say myself but really I mean having Tyler fix them) and not waiting weeks for someone else to do it.  I'll just have to be patient! 

We love this house and are thrilled that our friends are buying it.  Their little boy was over the other day and he said "guess what Rachel.  We are going to move soon.  To a house with property".  He was very excited, as he should be!!! He will love it here!